hello everyone, and welcome or welcome back to my blog! (:
happy pride month!!! 🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈
so, SOMEHOW, june is already here. but, may was a good month, i read a lot, lol. 🙃
okay yeah that’s all i have to say ahah
that was a quick intro
read at least 5 books 📚 – yeah, i read 11! (:
try to redesign (or at least start redesiging) blog 💻 – i’ve changed my theme and the colour of my blog 😌 yayyy i did something (if you’re reading this on the reader, click here to see my new blog design!)
try your best at school 🏫 – *flashback to exams* i tried haha
and here are my june goals!
try to change your blog button and blog name (: 💻
books i read
✨ the sun is also a star by nicola yoon
✨ one by sarah crossan
✨ the weight of water by sarah crossan
✨ proud compiled by juno dawson
✨ you’ll be the death of me by karen mcmanus
✨ we are all made of molecules by susin nielsen
✨ talk to the hand by nicole dryburgh
✨ a good girl’s guide to murder by holly jackson
✨ not my problem by ciara smyth
✨ they both die at the end by adam silvera
✨ good girl, bad blood by holly jackson
all of these books were really fun to read, some made me cry and some made me laugh, and i really recommend all of them!
what i watched
i haven’t watched too much this month, i watched senior year on netflix (i haven’t finished it yet, though, ahah) and i watched a few episodes of friends (:
music i listened to
i mostly listened to sabrina carpenter (thumbs, skin and skinny dipping) and i also listened to maniac by conan gray and demons by imagine dragons. they’re all super good songs! ‘u’
Let’s start before I embarrass myself for the millionth time
~ June Goals ~
Drink more water 🌊 – I always add this as one of my goals, but I can never get round to doing it
Listen to more music! 🎶 (annnd more 1D music. Okay, Evin, I’ll do it for ya 😉 ) – Well, I did listen to lotsa music, and I think I did listen to a bit of 1D? im sorry evinnnn Buuut I did add Drag Me Down to my playlist! always a plus, y’know
Be productive 😜 – No siree, all I did was read like, 10 posts and post LITERALLY 3 TIMES WHAT MAYA WHY i did also reblog but that doesn’t count
Read 📚👀 – I didn’t read as much as last month, but I still read a bit :)))))
~ July Goals ~
Read at least 3 books 📚
Listen to music! 🎶
Be productive: remember, you CAN do this! love the inspirational message, maya
I recently got Spotify (you can check out my account here! I know, my profile doesn’t look too good 😂) and I really like making playlists! I’ve discovered a lot more music, and I use my headphones at least once a day now. 😜
Here are the songs I’ve been listening to recently:
Yes I’ve been listening to my sad songs playlists more than my actual playlist I just like the songs-
📺 Films/Series 📺
I remember that I started rewatching Once Upon a Time on Netflix in May, but I didn’t watch too much. Sadly, Once Upon a Time isn’t on Netflix anymore, but it’s available on Disney+! I actually can’t remember watching anymore things, though. 🤦♀️ Maya why did you even add this in then- 😂
GUYYYYSS I FINALLY FINISHED WRITING THIS POST IT TOOK ME 10 YEARS WOOOO HOOOOOO
*makes a mental note to write July’s wrap up post early*
Oh, I wanted to say that this month my class is going on a few day trip, and we can’t bring any devices in case they get lost, so I’ll be taking a week long break at one point. 😊
Hey, everybody! How are you today? I’m pretty good myself. 😊
Anyways, a few days ago, I got tagged by Akriti! Thank you for tagging me!
THANK THE PERSON WHO NOMINATED YOU.
LIST 15 OF YOUR “SMALL JOYS”.
NOMINATE AT LEAST 5 MORE BLOGGERS.
Alright then! Let’s start!
Writing a blog post!
Reading and reply to comments – you guys are the best! 💖💫
Reading blog posts!
Chatting to my friends!
Reading! (I’m reading Percy Jackson and the Titan’s Curse right now, and it’s really good! 😍)
Cycling! It’s so much fun, with the wind in my face and I don’t feel like I need to peddle that hard to cycle quickly!
Drawing/doodling! I really love to doodle and draw! I’ve changed my drawing style, and I don’t really do digital art anymore, but I do do traditional art quite a lot now! Bahaha but it mostly looks like scribbles. 😂
Doing anything Harry Potter related! (Ok, what more can I say? 😏)
Making something somewhat aesthetic and not completely failing! (Like this post! 😌)
Writing a story that’s good! 🌼👀
Talking to my parents! 👨👩👧👧
Listening to music and cleaning my room! 🎶
Laughing at a joke or something funny! 😂
Watching a film or a video on YouTube or a series that’s interesting and funny! 💖
But don’t worry! I’ll try my best to do this! *cough… VERY reassuring, PottahWand, VERY reassuring 🙄*
I’m not sure how many parts there will be, I guess I’ll be either doing it till the end of time, or when I’ve had enough! 😂
So I won’t surprise you and attack you with bad news, in case I give up, because I’m doing the first part (I’m not sure part is the right word… 🤣) today!
I was gonna do Blinding Lights, but then I realised that I… probably go on about it too much. 😂 It’s an amazing song, okay?
So I thought to myself, hmm, which song could I do?
And then I realised.
I am LITERALLY in LOVE with High Hopes! It’s an amazing song, and Brendin Urie’s vocals are amazing! *cough cough… yeah, and you’ve only listened to what, 2 songs by Panic! At the Disco?* (Hehe… I don’t listen to music too much.)
Anyways, here’s the story!:
Pacing seemed to make the pressure worse; I sat down in a blue, relatively comfy chair. As I sat down, all of my worries, all of my nightmares that I had had in the past weeks, everything, came crashing down on me. Surely, they’d find someone better than me? No doubt I’d perform badly in the interview that would determine my future, the one that was about to start. Why would I try, when I knew, of course, I knew, that there was no hope?
Sighing, I took out my phone. Maybe texting my friends would help? ‘Hey, at da interview right now! 😆 How do u think I’ll do?’ I wrote, and sent to my friend Kiara. I hoped she’d boost my confidence. I reread my message. I sounded like I was confident, excited- the complete opposite of what I was actually thinking. A message pinged back. It read,
‘Hai! Good luck! 🤞 I know u can do it! 💕’
My heart lifted; I could do it! I truly believed in myself now, and if anyone would ever push me down anymore, they would be taken aback at the speed I came back up again!
“Miss Hall?” called an old lady tottering to the waiting room, “Is there a Miss Hall?”
“I- oh, yeah, that’s me, Ms…?”
“Call me Minnie, dear,” The old woman told me, “now follow me! You wouldn’t like to be late for your interview, would you now?” She added fondly.
“No… I mean- yeah, no.” I laughed nervously.
“Nerves? Don’t worry, it’s just a few demonstrations of your teaching skills, and some questions. Nothing to worry about.” She said soothingly.
We entered her office, and I saw a number of small ornaments placed cleverly everywhere. Eight on the shelf, a few on the windowsill, it seemed that no one could sit anywhere on the furniture, and I sat down instead on a wooden, but surprisingly somewhat comfortable chair.
“Just a few minutes, dear, don’t worry.” She smiled.
Minutes passed in awkward silence, and after what seemed like ages, an elderly man came into the room and asked for me.
. . .
“I GOT IT!” I yelled over the phone to my mum, “I’VE DONE IT!!! I’M A TEACHER NOW!”
“I’m so happy for you, honey!” she cried, “I really am! After all your hard work… I’m so proud of you!” she dissolved into tears.
“Okay, I’m coming home now, I love you!” I laughed, and hung up.
After getting off the bus and opening the door, I was blasted full in the face with my family and friends yelling ‘SURPRISE!!!’ at me, kitted with food, party poppers and confetti.
“What- you guys planned this for me?! But you only found out a few hours ago! How- Minnie!” I had spotted the elderly woman, a twinkle in her eye.
“I thought you’d like a surprise party.” She said simply, and shrugged.
And… that’s a wrap, people! 👏 You’re meant to say that when you’ve finished making a movie but whatever 🙄😏
I hope you liked it? 😅 I literally lost a couple of hours of my life, though, 😂 because I had originally planned to do Love Story, by Taylor Swift, and the start wasn’t bad, but I’m HORRIBLE at romance, so I didn’t actually know how to make all the “Romeo and Julliet” love story stuff. So I deleted it, and realised that I can do High Hopes, because… *drumroll, please* IT’S AMAZING!!!
One last thing- comment a song you’d like to be made into a story! 😊 I’ll try my best to do as many of them as I can!
See you soon, lovelies! 💕 Hey- that’s what I’ll call you! 😍
You look beautiful. You really do. Don’t deny it. Did you know that a butterfly can’t see it’s own wings? That’s really sad, because they can’t see how beautiful they are. Just like you. You are a butterfly, and you can’t see how pretty and wonderful you are.
Are you worried about something? You might be. Everyone tells you this, and I will too: you should tell somebody. Trust me, you’ll feel 1000 times better. You don’t even have to speak. You can write how you feel in a diary. You can write the date and draw a picture of how you’re feeling. Even a few scribbles. That can help you. Don’t bottle it up. In the end, you’ll burst.
You can cry, you know, if you need to. Let the tears spill down your cheeks, and take deep breaths. Cuddle something, someone. Release your feelings. Take deep breaths with me, now.
In through your nose…
Out through your mouth…
You’ll feel more relaxed now. If you’d like to, vent, rant to me. Whisper it. I won’t be able to hear it, but you’re telling it to someone. I’ll feel it. In my heart. ❤
Do be afraid. Yes. Be afraid. It’s human. It’s natural. No one has ever lived without being afraid once. Would you like a hug? I can hug you.
Some music for you:
I hope those pieces of music help you relax or smile!
I know this post was quite short, but I wanted to do my part in Mental Health Awarness, and since it was Down Syndrome Awarness Day on Monday, I wanted to do this. ❤ It was also Red Nose Day on Friday, 19th March.